* This is a post I wrote in September and clearly forgot to press publish on, but the message is conveys is relevant. Especially this time of year when we try to be all things to all men.
It’s a Sunday night, the boys are all tucked up in bed, Sean is prepping for his first full week at University for his Masters degree and I am sat on the sofa writing this blog post up. I’ve had a lovely weekend with the boys.
I wanted to write this post to remind myself and maybe you too, that sometimes it’s good to just let go of the ideas of perfectisonism when it comes to Motherhood. I often write about how overwhelmed I feel. This is partly because I have so much to do and am inherently disorganised, this is generally not a winning combination.
This weekend I decided to just let it go. To strip everything back to basics. Friday night I went to bed at 8:30. Yes 8:30, the boys were still awake, but I was exhausted. I let them have some chill time with Daddy and he put them bed. Ezra came and joined me in bed around 10. I took away the expectation of me having to put them to bed and of having to stay up getting things done or staying up to watch Netflix to try and get some me time and instead admitted defeat and took the real me time I needed. Sleep.
I listened to a guided sleep hypnosis on YouTube focusing on becoming your ideal self. I wokenthe next morning with a real sense of, for want of a better word, purpose. Whether it was the hypnosis or the sleep I don’t really know?
I woke up and decided to spend some time on me. I showered, washed my hair, dried and straightened it. I even brushed my teeth, put make up and got dressed. These things are normally last on my list.
I managed to run the dishwasher, do two loads of laundry and get the kids ready and out of the house before midday. This is quite the feat in our house at the weekend. I took the boys and their scooters and we went and had and adventure at Sutton Park.
They scootered, ran, jumped and climbed. We had random conversations and we played games together. We went to the swing park and rather than our usual ice cream, we had toasties, crisps and cordial. We chatted and enjoyed each others company. Now don’t for a moment it was all wonderful. We had tantrums, silly falling outs and even one child openly piddling in a field.
Oh the shame
We went to see the ducks and swans on the lake and we went into the forest. We collected items for this weeks Sensory Sunday with Nahdz on instagram. We found some old dens that had built and the boys had yet even more fun.
Looking at these photos and remembering the fun and freedom we all had makes me want to remember that sometimes it’s good to just ‘Let it go’.
Much love and many thanks